Tuesday, August 19, 2008

~Stop the Merry-Go-Round~

Tuesday 5:10am.

Coffee. Scissors. Angel wings. Not enough. My life is spinning faster and faster. It's blurring around me. Breathe. Deep breaths. Don't close your eyes. You don't want to miss anything. Breathe. It's almost September. Panic is setting in. Not enough hours in the day. Or nite. The elves forgot to show up....again.


Ella and Jackson were here for the weekend. For Ella's party. And life became clear again. The merry-go-round slowed down just enough that I was able to jump off. For a short while. I didn't want to miss one second of time with these precious children.

Ella is in awe of what her grandma does. Wide-eyed, she picks up doll heads, angel wings, fabric. The smile on her face says it all.

It was only yesterday that she was only a twinkle in her parents' eyes. And here she is. Four. Loving life. Playing princess. Giving hugs and 'I Love Yous' when I need them most. And it makes me remember why I'm doing all this.

Today the house is empty again. The kids and grandkids are all back home. Where they belong. Where God means them to be. And I'm left alone with the angels. Real ones. Cloth ones. And the coffee.

Angels are beckoning.

And there's that merry-go-round. Spinning.

Too much to do.

Angels everywhere.









20 comments:

womaninawindow said...

I think your life must be lovely. I would love to be little and visit your home and sit amongst the angel wings.

thanks for coming to me. I'll come back to read about Katie...is it? I'm intrigued.

Carol said...

Erin...It IS a wonderful life. Now if that merry-go-round would just turn a bit slower!

Anonymous said...

The creative mind can leave you exhausted, can't it, Carol? All those ideas spinning around in your head, wanting you to get your body outta bed and get those hands creating! Glad you enjoyed your grandbabies.. makes me sure my two in Virginia!

Nel

Carol said...

You're right, Nel. But it's a good exhaustion most of the time!

Lily said...

I know what you mean, about the merrigoround! And about remembering what it's all about. :-) Isn't it wonderful to have the perspective of having a child in your life? Such blessings!

Marci said...

Carol, I love the way you tenderly, honestly bare your soul with such trust for the world to read! We need more angels like you!

industrialpoppy said...

I loved this post. It says so much, so beautifully.

Jules~ said...

Ella is a lovely little girl....inside and out. I can see it in her smile. I am so glad that you had a wonderful weekend of being Grandma and getting of the spinning merry go round for a bit. May you feel God's peace all around you as you fill quotas and deadlines. It is all in His timing.

Anonymous said...

Carol, as always, you inspire me with your clarity about priorities and your commitment to getting OFF the merry-go-round when needed to spend time with loved ones. Ella Bella continues to grow into a gorgeous gal---just like her Grandma!
Kathi

Barbra said...

The tone of your posts is so soothing and real and calming and and and! Wonderful to 'meet' you!

Barbra said...

I don't recall if I answered you but I also taught 2nd grade but mostly 3rd forever and have 2 grandbabies also...small world?

CIELO said...

Time does go by so fast, indeed. Enjoy each moment.

cielo

Carol said...

Kathi...Thank you, but getting off that merry-go-round sometimes means getting thrown off!!!!

Carol said...

Lily...Oh yes...a child's perspective keeps you looking at things like YOU did when you were a child!

Marci...It's not easy to bare your soul, as others oftentimes misinterpret what you mean. C'est la vie!

Poppy...Thank you!

Jules...I do know that it's all in His timing....but sometimes I get impatient and wish He'd help me hurry through it to accomplish it sooner!! Guess you can't hurry God, though!

Kathi...She is getting big way too quickly! She's such a combination of her mommy and daddy. Just beautiful inside and out.

Barbra...I laughed out loud when I read your comment!! I'm glad I 'sound' cool and calm and soothing!
But it ain't so!! Thanks for stopping by!

Carol said...

Cielo!! How nice to see you! You are right!!

Carol said...

Wow Barbra!

Patti said...

Ella is adorable, especially sitting by the basket of your beautiful doll faces! The merry-go-round can be exhausting, but exciting too! Enjoy the ride!

alan pardoe said...

my grandsons are the best not perfect but as you say one look or hug, God blessed me. may you have your family around you more. Eph 1 :15-23

Miss B said...

What a lucky grand daughter! And such pretty angels.

Suldog said...

Thanks for stopping by at my place. So, I should expect the photos any day now, right?

:-)